I wondered how I can collect beautiful moments when I saw none.
I can’t go try a new restaurant or take a vacation.
There’s only so many pictures you can take of grass and trees (although I do love being one with nature).
The one person that I typically bounce ideas with and provokes my creativity isn’t in the best place right now so that leaves me.
Alone I wasn’t able to take this blog to the next level, views weren’t the same with just me.
Am I really as creative as I think? Do I truly have the ability to do this?
I found myself blocked, unable to create completely.
Am I enough?
I thought this question had been retired.
I did the self-work. I found confidence and peace within. Why was this a thought?
How did I get back here?
When I was down and I out I worked on myself consistently. I was dedicated to me, Jane’t.The effects and results of this were amazing. It wasn’t easy but soon enough I felt my best. I knew who I was, and no one could tell me otherwise. Once I reached this point that was it, the work stopped, and I slipped right back into the same patterns I had once before without realizing it. This was masked by life happening all around me.
Then came quarantine, and all mask were removed.
Work Stress- Removed
Emotionalism in Church- Removed
Drinking with my Friends- Removed
“Fixing” People- Removed
The mask has been STRIPPED off and all I have left to deal with is me.
Looking inward, I found a lot of broken pieces and realized that this mess was way too much for me to clean up on my own. I am allowing the creator to piece me back together and although I’m sure this process will be lengthy; I see the small progress and changes.
Light shining through.
Creativity shining through.
Beautiful moments shining through.
Even in my brokenness I am not just enough, I am more than enough because my father said so. My craft, my art does not have to be dependent upon outside inspiration. If I never eat at another restaurant or take another vacation (God forbid), I am already equipped to operate in my gift and my calling, to inspire.
I am art.
CREATE Beautiful Moments.