I walked to the lake today, contemplating jumping in
Knowing that I will drown, aware that I can’t swim
I’ve reached an all new low, one that I can’t escape
How many more stupid decisions do I have to make?
Another fake friend ?
A fresh heartbreak?
More lessons learned?
How much does it take !
My heart is tired of me, she has sunken so deep
I have no more love left to give , not even for loving me
It’s a sad day in my world , only grey, black, and blue.
Yellow, what happened to you?
I gave you everything I had and you forsake me still
You were the sunshine , the ray of light, the much needed break from the dark night
Just as the sun rises , it also sets, and then comes a beautiful mess
There is still some yellow mixed with orange and red yet it is clear that a dark night is ahead
The transformation is painful to watch but beautiful still
Soon it turns pitch black , all beauty now killed
I stare at the lake , under a still black sky , wondering if I’ll choose to live or die