Growth and self work are not easy things to do. Even with all of the extra effort I put into being a better me , loving myself, I find myself slipping back into the same patterns and routines that broke me.
I don’t want to be a broken woman.
I don’t want to do the same things.
How did I end up back here?
As I laid down in my bed of foolishness I realized what the problem is, I can’t do this on my own. I’ve been trying to prove to God that I can do it while neglecting to ask for his strength , ask for his kindness, without asking him to take over and transform things. My approach was simply to do this on my own, how foolish.
Proverbs 3:5-6 says “Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.”
As I continue to work on myself, I will first allow God to work on me. From now on my path to being a better Janèt begins with what the creator has directed and planned for my life.